Bob & Rose

There’s a growing sense these days that Manchester’s Canal Street is far too, well, straight. Many ascribe this to the appeal of Queer As Folk: All the straight girls started coming down to gawp, with the hetero lads in hot pursuit. If there is any truth to that, it’s only partial. The area was already on the decline before Russell T Davies wrote his series of life and lust on the Manchester scene. His latest work, Bob and Rose, is less likely to stir up similar feelings regarding his portrayal of inner city nightlife, but may provoke other reactions.

For while Bob does hit the scene occasionally (indeed, he quotes one of his favourite haunts as Babylon, the fictional club from QAF) and is not averse to pulling complete strangers. The potential for controversy, however, comes not from drug use or underage sex, but from a subject far more incomprehensible to many gay men: Bob Gossage, comprehensive teacher and well-adjusted gay man, falls in love with a woman.

Russell Davies’ press interviews prior to the broadcast have concentrated on the fact that his inspiration came from the real-experiences of a friend. This has possibly been an attempt to counteract the opinion (voiced by more than one friend of mine) that “it’s just not possible – you can’t be gay AND like women.” He needn’t worry, though, for the cast and production team whose job it is to bring this unlikely situation to the screen do so in an utterly compelling and believable manner.

It does help that the central character of Bob is played by Jonathan Creek’s Alan Davies. Here is a man whose sexual charm is lost on most men, but who has acquired some degree of a following among straight women. The everyman persona he has created through his stand-up comedy and acting roles is just about believable as a single gay man who pulls relatively easily and whose bewildered, little-boy-lost look is perfect for a man, who feels completely overwhelmed by the emotions that are induced by a completely unexpected source.

Davies is matched and, indeed, surpassed in every way by Lesley Sharp, a character actress of the highest calibre without whom Playing The Field, Clocking Off and The Full Monty would have been the poorer. In her first role as the ‘romantic lead’ instead of an ensemble player, she finally gets the chance she has deserved for so long. Both leads are perfectly served by Russell Davies’ warm, funny and occasionally painfully honest script, as both Bob and Rose deal with their own and each other’s vulnerabilities.

To carry six hours of primetime television, though, you need more than two characters. At first glance, the supporting roles seem to conform to various stereotypes: Rose’s ineffectual, even ditzy, mother and her no-good boyfriend; Bob’s best friend Holly, who is jealous enough when Bob’s time is taken up with other men, let alone another woman.

In episode two we’re introduced to Bob’s parents. Monica, played to a T by Penelope Wilton, is the ringleader of Parents Against Homophobia!, always up to date with the latest human rights injustices around the world and who spends her spare time stuffing condoms into safer sex packs. In contrast, Bob’s father (John Woodvine) can joke about condom use with the other women of PAH!, but is monosyllabic in Bob’s presence.

As with Queer As Folk, however, it’s quickly apparent that while on the surface these characters could be viewed as ciphers, there is far more to them. Each has their problems, neuroses and secrets just bubbling under the surface.

By far the hardest job in this regard falls upon the shoulders of Jessica Stevenson (Spaced, The Royle Family) who has to win us over to thinking of her character, Holly, as a viable best friend to Bob even while she’s plotting to eradicate any chance of happiness he has that doesn’t directly involve her. It’s the performance of her career to date: a lesser actress could easily have us hating Holly from the start, but Stevenson’s scene-stealing portrayal gives us a suspenseful ambivalence towards her true motives.

Indeed, with all the characters, there’s a significant lack of malice. This is not a piece about homophobia or, come to that, heterophobia, in the traditional sense. Instead one gets the impression that there’s an underlying theme of the danger of secrets, a need for openness, and how Bob and Roses’ eventual honesty about their own feelings towards one another could give their friends and loved ones a route to an outlet of their own.

If there’s a downside at all to Bob and Rose, it’s minimal. Both Queer As Folk and Red Production’s other recent hit, Clocking Off, benefited strongly from the musical genius of Murray Gold. The absence of his exuberance here (replaced by the understated subtleties of a score by Martin Phipps) is noticeable, but the subtlety of incidental music does draw attention to the myriad awkward silences that punctuate the course of the protagonists’ relationship. Indeed, it does at times seem rather melancholic, although it does contain some of the finest comedy the channel has seen in some time; it’s quite feasible, for example, that nobody watching the first episode will ever be able to give a serious name to a pet dog ever again.

In crafting a completely believable, normal gay man caught up in a strange, yet honestly compelling situation, ITV has produced in Bob and Rose something that Queer As Folk never quite managed to evoke – a painful, honest account of everyday life among gay people and their friends in a way that all, gay or straight, can immediately feel they relate to.

It’s also, despite its subject matter, a very traditional morality tale; yes, there is someone out there for each of us. It may be someone who we may only meet by chance and could be far removed from our own preconceptions, but for everyone there’s the chance of a happy ending.

* Originally published on [Gay.com UK](http://uk.gay.com)

Folk Off to America: An interview with Russell T. Davies

Scott: The American-made version of Queer As Folk starts this Sunday, December 3.

Russell: It does, doesn’t it? Bloody hell. Apparently there are billboards all over New York, and things like that happening. Marvellous! And what am I doing in Manchester, I ask myself?

So what has it been like handing the series over to a complete group of strangers?

Well, a piece of piss really, to be honest. It’s so remote and distant. It’s lovely, a massive compliment, but if you told me five years ago – or even two years ago – that something I’d written would be a twenty-two hour American series – a $22million series! – I would have been leaping about in the garden, thinking, “that’s the best news in the world! ” And the strange thing is that when these things happen in real life, you’re much more interested in getting your kitchen decorated and paying your bills on time. Real life has a tremendous talent for keeping life very ordinary. So I’m not swanning about in a limousine or anything.

Is that because you feel you’ve moved on from Queer As Folk to other things?

No, I think about Queer As Folk all the time. I think about every show I’ve ever written all the time. I don’t know if this is true of every writer, but I never quite get rid of them, they sort of tick away in the background. I think it’s because it is a cousin, you know, it’s not the original Queer As Folk, it’s a different show. The moment they said it was going to be 22 hours it became a different show.

When you first heard it was going to be that length, were you worried they might not have enough content to fill the time?

No, not for a second, because there’s so little story anyway in the series. It’s not like we sold them a murder mystery where the murder’s solved in episode six, and then it’s over. In some senses, very little happens in Queer As Folk. It’s everyday life. It’s work, it’s school, it’s friends, and family, and clubbing, and sex, and relationships. That can run for 22 years! I don’t think they were sitting there with cold feet saying, “Oh my God, are we going to run out of material?” because that’s life. I do think it would be hard to sustain unrequited love for 22 hours, and I don’t know what their plans are for that. I suspect that will change as it goes on. You know, like all American stuff they’re hoping for season two, season three, season four. If it’s in season four and the Vince character [called Michael in the new series] is still in love with the Stuart character [Brian] and still hasn’t said a word then they’re in trouble. It’s bound to change as it goes on. But that’s natural, that’s good, that’s what stories should do. There’s nothing worse than a story that’s set in stone and never, ever changes. That would be dreadful.

What sort of involvement have you had in the series?

Minimal. The nice thing is the two blokes in charge, writer/producers Ron Cowen and Dan Lipman, are gay men, it’s like a gay man’s network. I got on tremendously well with them, we had such a laugh when I met them. It was quite weird, because we’d both spent huge chunks of our lives working on the same thing, just separately. When we met we got on instantly, because we’d all been doing the same shit!

So, the odd little word here and there. I gave some notes on the first two scripts – some of which they took, some they didn’t, which is what you should do with notes – and that’s it really. I’ve read up to episode ten, but they’re filming episode 17 now. I’ve got no idea what happens in the middle, and I’ve got no idea what happens at the end, actually, so it’s quite minimal but that’s all I wanted.

How would you say your treatment by Showtime has differed from that by Channel 4?

I haven’t been treated by Showtime at all, really. I mean, they flew me out once for a visit, but actually it was a hell of a lot of publicity for them. They had a big press launch in New York. And they’re not daft; you know, every single gay magazine and every gay writer is waiting to write that article that says “Queer As Folk Creator Slags Off American Series”! Well, not every gay writer, because a lot of people have got better things to write about! But those who want to churn out a quick two thousand words will be dying for that, so it’s very much in Showtime’s interest to fly me out there and get me saying that I like it and stuff like that. And that’s publicity, that’s television, that’s good business sense.

I have to say I was treated like a bloody king! It was the best hotel I’d ever seen in my life, astonishing, and cars everywhere and they were all “stay on if you want and go shopping in New York!” In this country it’s like, “there’s your sausage roll, now go and work like a slave!” So that sense of it was weird, but I’m sure they don’t treat everyone like that all the time. It was a big press launch and with a big transatlantic deal going on, I suppose they had to do that.

And poor old Nicola Shindler [UK Queer As Folk producer] has not been asked out there once, bless her! It’s a gay man’s network, I don’t think they know she exists, which makes me laugh!

You get on really well with Nicola, don’t you?

She’s a marvel.

In your sleeve notes for the Queer As Folk 2 CD, you called her “my wife in a parallel universe”.

Which made her run! She’s not one for sentiment, that woman. She’d slap you in the face if you said anything sloppy like that! She’s marvellous, the best producer in the world. I actually believe you could have taken those Queer As Folk scripts and made them into the worst drama in the world, really, using exactly the same lines, same characters and same scenes and it could have been absolutely fucking dreadful! And she made it a classy piece of work. And you watch her other stuff, like Clocking Off on BBC One, I think is such a classy piece of telly. She knows what she’s doing, that woman! And she’ll make sure she does it, even if she has to tread on a few toes along the way. I bet she’s not easy to work for sometimes, but she’s absolutely brilliant with writers.

The series you’re currently writing for ITV, Bob And Rose, is based around a gay man’s relationship with a straight woman. Is there any foundation in that from your own life?

In me? Ha ha, no, not remotely! Not remotely at all, never, ever slept with a woman. Snogged one when I was fourteen. Although the whole point of the story is that anyone can fall in love with anyone. It did actually happen to a friend of mine, who was the gayest man you’ll ever meet in the world. He just met a woman, and he says to my face, “I will go to the grave a gay man,” but it’s beyond labels, it’s beyond stereotypes, it’s just he loves this woman. They have sex together regularly, and now they’ve got children and they’re very happy. Which just goes to show that anyone can fall in love with anyone. Most times it doesn’t happen. Most times life is just normal and we all miss the person we should be with and just carry on making do with someone else, but just once in a while… I’m not a romantic person, but I do believe that. So that’s what this is about, nothing remotely based on my own experience! No way!

And that’s what was brilliant, what was absolutely fantastic about the man it actually happened to. The prejudice he faced from gay men, from his friends, was astonishing. They all treated him like dirt and laughed behind his back – because it scared them to the very foundations of what they are, you know – out, happy, gay men. It absolutely shook them. It did me. When he first started going out with this woman, I was just laughing, saying, “isn’t this ridiculous, isn’t he stupid,” and then, I’m ashamed to say, I did everything except sit down and talk to him. Then eventually, I did – we got very drunk – and I realized that I was taking the piss out of something very real. It’s so easy to take the piss, you know, prejudice takes many forms. It’s real, and that’s something to be written about.

What’s it like working for ITV again?

Fantastic. I love ITV. You see, the thing is, I’m an ITV viewer. You know Wednesday’s schedule? Coronation Street, an hour of David Beckham (thank you very much), half an hour of Who Wants To Be A Millionaire? and then The Full Monty. Am I watching, or what? I am that viewer.

I love them. They’re so honest and straightforward to deal with. And all the stuff you might imagine happening – we were interviewing directors today, and the directors were asking us, “are you having any problems getting gay stuff past ITV?” And it’s the absolute opposite. They want us to work for them. They want the scripts, they want me to write whatever I want. People forget that ITV made The Naked Civil Servant and Cracker and Prime Suspect. They’ve always been an adventurous channel. The reason why there’s a lot of shit on that channel is that they get sent a lot of shit.

So would you ever go back to Channel 4?

Not at the moment, no, wouldn’t touch them with a barge pole! Until I get an idea that will only work on Channel 4, at which point I’ll swallow all my principles and go and do it. But no, actually, have they ever sorted out what slots their drama is in? They don’t know what they’re doing with drama. Everyone else has got built-in slots. You haven’t got a clue with Channel 4 when the drama is going to be on. Ironically, they only shows they do that for, the only fixed slots, are for their American imports, which is astonishing! Friends will be on a Friday at 9, ER will be on a Wednesday at 9… and they advertise, you know, “Wednesday night is ER night”. You think, “why can’t you do that for your own stuff?” They’re a very, very schizophrenic channel in that sense. It’s not because I’m cross with them, I’ve always thought that. I used to say that when I was in the building working for them. Very, very strange approach to their own material, it’s weird.

You devoted a lot of time into developing the QAF spin-off Misfits and The Second Coming for Channel 4, both of which have been cancelled.

Yes, I did. I mean, it happens, it has to be said. Things fall through. It’s not so much the things falling through I object to: we were genuinely led to believe, first with Misfits that it would be commissioned, and then with The Second Coming that it was a definite commission. It was said, “you have got a green light.” And so the amount of time and – I don’t want to go on about money, but the principles of the thing are best described in money. Roughly, you get 30 per cent when you accept the contract, 30 per cent when you deliver the script, 30 per cent when they accept the script, and then you get 100 per cent of that all over again when they start filming. So when they say it’s a definite commission… I don’t spend much money, but I went and got my entire house redecorated thinking, I’ve got money for next year, and then they take away a definite commission which is like – oh God, it’s going to sound like this is all about money – all that money’s completely missing. So they actually rob you of a living. I’m not poor but, you know, there are hacks bashing away at Casualty who are earning ten times what I’m earning. And it’s your life; it’s what you’re doing for the whole of next year.

They actually asked me to turn down other stuff, that was the astonishing thing with The Second Coming. They said, “will you turn down this project, will you turn down that one, because we want you to work on this. This is a green light, this is commissioned.” Yes, I said, marvellous – then they took it away. If I could be bothered, then I could get lawyers and sue them. Except then I’d never work again, so fuck ’em. Can I say “fuck ’em” on Gay.com? Oh go on!

You said you got your house completely redecorated. You actually moved to Canal Street for a while, didn’t you?

A little flat just off Canal Street, which meant I never went out to Canal Street, because I could see it out my window and couldn’t be bothered!

So you weren’t trying to capture the Stuart Jones lifestyle?

No way! It was too close, way too close to Canal Street. It was bizarre – I almost literally never went out. I became a hermit! I went out for chips of a night, very handy for fast food, that was all. I did realise – I knew, otherwise I’d have been living there anyway – that city centre loft lifestyle was not for me.

There are three main series that people associate with Manchester: Queer As Folk itself, Cold Feet and, of course, Coronation Street.

Cold Feet is disappointing this year, don’t you think? I can’t bear Helen Baxendale, actually. But anyway…

Coronation Street is celebrating its 40th anniversary at the moment, and that’s another show you’ve worked on.

Oh, very briefly, storylining it. And I wrote the most dreadful Christmas video special where Jack and Vera visit Las Vegas. In my own defence, it was written in three days and wasn’t, frankly, a highlight! Strangely, it was never shown on television! It’s a laugh, it’s like a Carry On film, as camp as Christmas!

So would you say Corrie is the opposite end of the spectrum to Queer As Folk in its portrayal of Manchester lifestyle these days?

Not particularly. It’s said by everyone, even writers who should know better, that Coronation Street is in a little world of its own, an eccentric, maybe nostalgic little world, and doesn’t represent the real world at all. I think it’s absolutely the opposite. It might not have the gritty reality of urban life, but a lot of people mistake reality for realism, which is a very different thing. And what the Street does absolutely perfectly is its tiny little moments between people who’ve known each other for forty years now.

I don’t mean the big divorces and the people in prison and the burning down of the pub sort of stuff – the tiny, tiny everyday relationships between people it gets exactly right. In fact, that is urban life more than Queer As Folk, more than Cold Feet. It’s closer in its tiny detail. And I love it. It’s full of huge, larger than life characters like Vera Duckworth and so is life. That’s what people are very afraid to admit. I can point to half my aunties who are like that in different ways, but who are mad. Life is full of larger-than-life characters. They exist. And yet, when you put them on screen people say that’s not real. And they look at EastEnders and say, “that’s realism, that’s true, because everyone’s miserable and they’re all having trouble, and it’s quite dark, gritty and real.” It’s a very great mistake that people make in thinking that television realism is therefore like real life. And do you know what? In Coronation Street, they have a laugh. And I think people in real life do. Not all the time, but actually a lot of my friends have got a cracking sense of humour and we have a good laugh. They do that on the Street and that is closer to real life than anything else. And so it’s head and shoulders above anything.

So what else have you got in the pipeline?

Ooh, I don’t know. I don’t tend to plan that far in advance. In the New Year, I’ll have a couple of conversations with people about two ideas that are floating around, but actually I’m just writing Bob And Rose. I can’t bear other writers who work on three things at once because it always reduces the quality of it. And we are paid enough to work on only one thing at once. Despite my earlier moan about money, my sisters would die if they knew how much I earned! Bob And Rose starts filming in March, so round about then I’ll start looking around for the next thing.

You were in talks at one stage about doing something for Channel 4’s proposed gay website.

Yes, Queer As Folk short stories, but I pulled out of that the second they pulled out of my stuff! It was lovely, and they were half written in my head, actually, bits on the computer, stuff like that. But it was the sort of job I would have had to use my spare time on, like Saturdays and Sundays. And when they pull out of major commitments to you and fuck up your year and your budget, you think “why am I going to give up my spare time for the sake of Channel 4?” Lovely website people, very nice people, not their fault, but tough shit, someone’s got to take the flak, and they were the only people in the firing line, so those were ditched permanently.

And that site’s been put on hold indefinitely now anyway.

It has, hasn’t it? When I got in touch with them – well, I got my agent to do it, but then I got in touch because they were very nice people and I felt a bit guilty about my childish strop. I wasn’t about to change my mind, but I got in touch with them myself, and that’s when they said, “Oh, actually, we might not be going ahead anyway.” For all they knew I’d spent the past fucking nine months writing those things and I had them all ready! And actually, in my head, a lot of it was ready. So, “thank you!” Chimps, they’re all a bunch of fucking chimps!

So could you reuse them?

Oh, you’d get caught up in copyright stuff. That’s the problem, Channel 4 own it outright.

With Misfits they said it’ll be returned to you to take to other channels after two years. Which is daft, really, no-one’s going to take an offshoot of a long dead show from another channel. And actually, even if that was the case, even if BBC Two said they were interested, then it would have been very interesting to see if the Channel 4 lawyers stood up and said, “oh look, Hazel Tyler, we own her,” things like that. So even then I think there would have many causes for making it impossible. It wasn’t worth the bother. You’d just end up paying lawyers, which we don’t want to do.

The other project your name’s been associated with on and off for the past couple of years is Doctor Who.

Yes, but that was Peter Salmon wanting that, bless him, and now he’s no longer Controller of BBC One I expect that’s dead. I haven’t heard anything for about six months. Apparently, there’s a film deal still ticking away, which would stop any television versions, so I think it just had the support of Peter Salmon and I don’t know who to talk to now. Lorraine Heggessey [the new Controller] I don’t know at all, wouldn’t know her to look at her, so I think that’s dead.

Well, we’d better let you get on with Bob and Rose. By the way, are you having a housewarming for your newly renovated home?

Let people in here spilling red wine all over my lovely new house? Am I bollocks!

Another Year On

She strolled down towards Via Fossa. Three hours to get ready tonight, more than she spent for her first date with Michael Chambers in Year 12.

The door swung open, knocking the gift from her hand. Picking it up, she realized who was passing her.

“Nathan!” she called. “Happy seventeenth!”

He looked at her like she was nothing. “Oh,” he said eventually. “Hi, Donna.”

“I…” got you a present, she started to say. “See ya later,” he called back, already walking away.

See ya later: the last words her mum said to Gary. Words she said when she meant goodbye.

The Cherub

He had skin of gold. In all Stuart’s nights of searching for the perfect man, he’d never found flesh of such perfection.

The boy stared all around, taking in the sights of the cobbled street. Every so often their eyes locked, and a gentle smile emerged. All too soon, his gaze started wandering again, desperately consuming each passing figure. A wide grin broke out as a familiar face approached.

Vince sat down next to Stuart, causing Alfie to gurgle with joy. Stuart cursed. Just his luck – to fall for someone who only has eyes for his best friend…

New Best Friend

Every part of Hazel that wasn’t supported by an underwire sagged visibly as she sat down at the kitchen table.

‘Well, that’s that,’ she said to the toaster in the corner, there being no one else in the house. ‘It’s just you, me and half a loaf of Mother’s Pride from now on. D’you think they’ll send me a postcard?’ She dragged on her cigarette. ‘Will they fuck.’

The toaster said nothing, which she took as being agreement. She liked talking to electrical goods; they never spoke back and interrupted a good bitching session.

Sticking the remains of her last Benson and Hedges in her mouth, she got up and flicked on the kettle. There were no mugs in the cupboard, which was no surprise to her. Vince was the only one who had ever done any washing up around here, even after he’d moved out. Bernie was forever up to his armpits in motor oil, and Alexander – well, there just weren’t enough hours in the day to wash his hair and the crockery, bless him. She picked what looked like the least dirty mug out of the sink (there was a dash of lippy on the rim, but it looked like her colour rather than Alice Band’s, so that was alright) and dropped in a tea bag.

It was as she was pouring in the hot water that she first felt she was being watched.
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Unconventional

Vince took a deep breath and burst through the door. It wasn’t what he had been expecting. No long scarves, no silver foil Cyberman costumes – some of them even had decent haircuts.

It was nice to feel like he wasn’t alone. There were other Doctor Who fans out there.

He bought a Budweiser (declining the Beck’s out of protest), looked round and spotted a friendly-looking crowd nearby. As he approached, he heard a dumpy looking chap with wandering hands say, “Of course, everybody knows that Russell based the character of Vince on me…”

He turned on his heels and ran.

Today…

Stuart Alan Jones had done some seriously stupid things in his time, but this had to be right up there with the worst of them. For someone who normally felt no shame, he was absolutely shitting himself.

He looked over to his mother. She could barely raise a smile in support, but her presence was gratifying.

The lights came up. Stuart took a deep breath, and tried not to notice the single bead of sweat running down his neck and under his designer collar.

The woman stepped forward. “Today on Trisha, ‘I flushed my blackmailing nephew’s head down the toilet!'”

Post mortem

“Well I think he captured us all really well,” Vince said as the Weather Girls segued into the theme music.

“Of course you do,” grumbled Stuart. “You’re the everyman hero who every mother wishes their faggoty son will meet and settle down with.”

“But you’re the one that everybody will want to fuck all night.”

Phil groaned. “Oh, give it a rest, the pair of you. There’ll be miles of slash fiction on the Internet about you. Nobody will remember the fat one who died halfway through.”

“You think that’s bad?” complained Alexander. “People will think I wear purple suits!”

Facade

We switch the light off and snuggle down for the night. “G’night, John Boy,” quips Alexander. We giggle gently together, then fall into that uncomfortable silence where you really want to fall asleep as quickly as possible. Only you can’t, because you want to so much, and the more you try and force yourself, the more alert you become.

I lie there, feeling Alexander shifting beside me, turning his back towards me. A muffled sniff comes from his side of the bed. Great, I think. This always happens when he stays over: Alexander gets a few sniffles and come morning, I’m the one with full-blown Beijing ‘flu.

Another sniff. And another. By the fourth, I realise that it’s not a cold at all. Instinctively I turn towards him and place my hand on his shoulder. It’s shaking with tears. He half-heartedly tries to shrug my hand away, but I keep it there, gently rubbing his upper arm. As I move towards him, he spins round and suddenly we’re facing each other. Alexander’s face buries into my shoulder and he lets out a horrible, inhuman sob. Both my arms go round him, and he collapses into my bear hug, gripping my T-shirt as he cries harder than I’ve ever known him to before.

Gently I rock him in my arms, playing with his hair as he lets his raw emotion spill out. This is the Alexander which nobody else sees, the veneer of make up, designer clothes and one-liners stripped away. Slowly his wails lessen, his sobs becoming empty. His breathing steadies, and I can feel the spasms that wracked his body diminish. I hug him tighter still, feeling him reciprocate. Delicately, I kiss the top of his head, inhaling the scent of his designer hair care regime. A delicate murmur of appreciation seems to form into barely audible words.

“Sorry?” I ask.

Alexander turns his head up to mine; although I can’t see them in the night’s darkness, I feel his eyes on me. “Thank you,” he whispers. “Thank you for not asking.”

I lean forward to kiss him on the forehead, but he’s anticipated me and moves upwards. We awkwardly bump noses before kissing sweetly, lip to lip. It’s not sexual at all, not even when we kiss again, longer and sweeter, our tongues rubbing subtly against each other. I marvel at my lower body control: here I am with one of the most beautiful faces I have ever known pressed against mine, tunnelling its way into my mouth, and down below – nothing.

Slowly our faces part, and Alexander snuggles into my shoulder. I feel his breath, calm and steady now, gradually slowing into slumber. I don’t want to sleep any more: I just want to protect him, the way his father and mother should have done. Come tomorrow morning, there’ll be a two-hour stint in the bathroom and he’ll emerge, dolled up to the nines, the showman once more.

I kiss the top of his head once more. Good night, Elizabeth.

And So, It Begins

Friday night started with the usual tales of previous exploits.

Vince was bursting. “You’ll never guess who he was,” he said. “Works in television: fantastic! He lists all the programmes he’s worked on and I’m thinking: Oh my God! And then when he tells me his name, it’s like I’ve died and gone to heaven. You’ll never guess what series he wrote a book for.”

“Star Trek?” Phil deadpanned.

“Fuck off,” Vince retorted. “We talked loads, and he’s writing this new series. Set on Canal Street. Based on us. But after that comment, I’ll ask him to kill you off…”